Only Be Patient

On the Term of Exile

BY BERTOLT BRECHT

TRANSLATED FROM THE GERMAN BY ADAM KIRSCH

No need to drive a nail into the wall
To hang your hat on;
When you come in, just drop it on the chair
No guest has sat on.

Don’t worry about watering the flowers—
In fact, don’t plant them.
You will have gone back home before they bloom,
And who will want them?

 If mastering the language is too hard,
Only be patient;
The telegram imploring your return
Won’t need translation.

Remember, when the ceiling sheds itself
In flakes of plaster,
The wall that keeps you out is crumbling too,
As fast or faster.

Hey everyone!

Greetings from the query and coaching trenches. As a bona fide introvert, I can report the last year and a half has been both harrowing and deeply nourishing.

The above poem is one I came across a few years ago when remembering my mother. Today is 20 years since she died by suicide. As of April this year, I’ve lived longer than she did. Her life is why I keep writing, keep creating. Because I think helping people find their own voice and healing from generations of trauma is just about the most important thing. Other than maybe exploring the world.

A friend encouraged me to share this query letter response I got recently to my immigrant memoir (below). Querying—looking for a literary agent to become your business partner—is not an encouraging process. But this letter has helped refuel my fire. To me, to you, I say, KEEP ON!

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Where Sigrid Nunez Elevates the Game (to Its Proper Level)

From an interview with Amanda Marbais on KUCI (Writers On Writing):

"Back when I was a student in an MFA program, you took it for granted that one of the reasons that a student wanted to be a writer was because that student loved literature and loved reading. And now it is far from uncommon to meet an aspiring writer who says that they don't want to read and in fact they don’t like reading, they don’t have really any interest in literature but they want to be a writer anyway. That's very difficult to work with. And I don’t really understand it because it's so different from the way I saw things and still see things…

“…as I recall, when I was young, there was really an emphasis on this idea that writing was a vocation and that you should be thinking of it as a vocation and not as a career. Now you'll find a lot of students in writing programs for whom it's sort of seen as more of a lifestyle that they're looking for. And one of the reasons why they want to be a writer is because they think it has a certain kind of life that will not only be enjoyable but will lift their self-esteem. And I think about what somebody like Philip Roth would say is how frustrating writing is. ‘It's like baseball, you fail two-thirds of the time.’ And toward the end of his life saying, “I just can’t do it anymore, I just cant face this failure all the time.’ That is very familiar to any professional writer.”

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A humbling, lens-correcting quote.

Last night I was reading a few pieces out loud for a reading at Octopus Literary Salon later this month and I realized how many typos slip in there and how much I’m not revising. (On the Creative Nonfiction podcast Kiese Laymon said the Heavy you see on shelves was his twentieth revision. Of the entire book. Jesus.) Nunez addresses general laziness in the rest of her interview. So, I was excited last night to remember I have the ability to catch my own mistakes and edit myself. And I’ve discovered that when I know an audience awaits, I edit way harder. Maybe there’s a way to mimic those conditions regularly…or find a writing group, which I am looking for.

I’ve been noticing The Friend for months and months. Excited to read.

P.S. Nunez ALSO heard "if you can do anything other than write, do that" when she was a student! From Elizabeth Hardwick!

MFA Morning

I’m in my fourth semester at Goucher College, where I’m earning a Master of Fine Arts in Creative Nonfiction. It’s a pretty unique program: nonfiction only, low-residency so professors come from many backgrounds/programs, a cohort of folks with every life experience you can think of, and it’s increasingly tuned in to wider social and political conversations.

The low-residency part means I also work full-time. Not everyone does, but I do. I sort of like it, because writing has to be prioritized. I also don’t like it, because I sleep less and don’t get as much done at a time as I’d like. Job or no job, I’ve found it’s impossible to do alone.

Yesterday my sister helped me out by printing my MFA thesis with my Goucher professor+mentor’s edits—in color, no less! Double thanks to Gabby and to my professor for edits. There are many, many more thank yous to come.

Stay tuned to see if I actually manage to graduate at the end of this semester! Stay tuned, too, for more MFA-related posts. (And feel free to reach out via the contact section if you’re considering an MFA and have questions.)

So the morning looked like this and tends to (try to) look like this. Progress one tiny bit at a time.

6:37 am on a Tuesday.

6:37 am on a Tuesday.